A memorable trip indeed

Off all the experiences, this has been one of a kind. Among other things, you spend your life in isolation from the rest of the world as you're stuck on top of a hill. Weather is as unpredictable as it can get. Different animals howl at night because the campus is surrounded by forest. Roads within the campus are wide and lights, dim. Network is crappy and it takes hours to reach city by road, further reducing your chances of getting to a proper shop for weeks to come. However, as you live, eat and breathe in this place for four years and sometimes longer, it literally becomes your home. Friendships formed here are perhaps stronger than those in cities because of the amount of time spent together. Plus, you are surrounded by beautiful scenery and fresh air.. something city dwellers are devoid of.

Neither we nor anyone else was expecting us to bring back any prize, so I assume we were sent down there on experimental basis. To learn from our mistakes and to 'bond'. Yes, I learned. I learned that we all live for ourselves. I learned not to trust anyone. I learned never to expect anything from anyone. I learned nobody gives a shit about you. I learned that we do walk alone. And some are kind enough to not hide it. As much as I would like to tell myself that I was surrounded by an ignorant bunch, I keep telling myself its time for me to accept reality. Bonding is one thing; I didn't even feel connected with any of my team mates. Yet I was stupid enough not to befriend with anyone outside the elite circle.

So what did the trip do for me in essence? It made my life all the more bitter. Never had I felt so lonely. Perhaps, one moment which I will cherish for the rest of my life is me sitting all alone on the floor of an empty corridor as I questioned the whys of life. To what extent was I responsible for what I felt? Certainly something did go wrong which had such adverse affects on me. Feeling suffocated in that dark and small hallway, I went out in search of girl’s hostel at midnight. However, I ended up roaming in circles as I cried under my umbrella.