This ought to be fun

So the highs and lows of my life are extremely weird.. but that just shows how fast my life moves and thus the reason why my emotions fluctuate so muh. Just yesterday, I started off from taking beer to Mio Hospital all by myslef ( she slipped on the road ) came back to university, heard about Sophie's resignation, followed by Imran bhai's sudden decision to leave DS and Sir Farhan's decision to keep Hina out of DS. Saw my name in the exam rolls for IDC exam just 10 mins before the exam was to start.. had to rush in and outside exam office to clear that mess. Took beer to the samnabad stop and came back to uni just in time to start my history assignment in pg library. As if that wasn't enough, Sidra baji had to choose that day to remind me of the previous work and shower further work load on me. And right now madeeha is insising that I go to Faislabad with her ummar and ali. As much as I would like to have a break, I also have to attend a meeting in DS at 11 and I've to hand over the Dowry article to Sophie, finish my history and pol science assignments and then take topics for second semester assignments. Plus I have to send the Duty Leaves for the entire month of April. Oh and my End Terms start from 23 and in between I've to camp for the debates in K.E which start from 27th. Lets hope I didn't forget anything.

Reflections

I was searching for a place to write about the pointlessness of existence.. came down here only to discover that all my posts since I came to Pakistan have been more or less the same. I don't even know how to put it in words... the more I involve myself in debates and other activities, the more empty my life seems. I even made a couple of friends just this week.. attended the bday party of maryum today and enjoyed myself as well. All of them girls are a really nice bunch.. but do I belong with them? My life right now is like a long road with dead ends. I don't see any direction or purpose. Sometimes i feel like i have inculcated too many tangent thoughts in my mind. My belief is weak. I don't get time to be myself. I don't have anything to celebrate. I miss my family. I miss ammi. But I have only myself to blame. I tried so hard to blend in with everyone and everything that I forgot to remember myself.